Relationships

Maybe I'm too young to really get relationships still. Andrew and I split up in June and he decided this month that it was the biggest mistake he's ever made. He doesn't know that I've met someone who is completely fantastic. I don't want to tell him because I know it will hurt him pretty badly. My family has been trying to pressure me into getting back with him despite my objections. He's broken my heart twice and people seem to think that I loved him that much that I could just look over it...but I can't. I loved him with all of my heart...that I can never deny. But after he called it quits in June, I'll admit...I was devastated. I had no idea how I was going to pick up the pieces and start fresh after 6 years. This may be sad, but it really wasn't that hard to do. Maybe my heart's trying to tell me something...maybe it's not ready to love again. Derek listens to my problems and lets me have the truth. He even tells me things that most girls would never want to hear, but I appreciate openness and honesty. I don't want to hurt Andrew anymore than I already have in the past but I'm not ready to face that chapter again...not yet anyway. I guess I'll just take it day by day and see what each of them brings.