Past Decisions

After reading a friend's post the other day it got me to thinking about the choices I have made in my life. She was discussing her choice when it came to choosing a college. I wonder now if going to Oklahoma State was the right choice for myself. Should I have looked at options out of state? Would that have made a difference? My dad's family is from Louisiana so LSU would have been a pretty good choice. If I had gone to a different college would I have stayed with Andrew? Would I have a different career path? Would I have even come back to Oklahoma? There's just so many uncertainties. I suppose my choice will suffice. I love Oklahoma State more than anybody in my family will ever understand. I don't know why that is. Maybe it's because that's where I got my first start. The slate had been wiped clean and I was free to draw what I wanted to on it. I admit, I didn't do very well the first couple of years. I was what most would call a bitch and I cussed like a sailor, not exactly how I wanted to get off. I didn't know how to cope with being around such good people. I was raised in a household where everyone was out to prove you wrong or do better than you and later rub it in your face. You couldn't get past any mistake you had ever made and it was constantly thrown in your face. The people I met were absolutely fantastic and appeared to have grown up in stable, loving households. I guess I was quite jealous and lashed out at everyone. Then I met two ladies who loved me for who I was, flaws and all. I didn't have to pretend around them and they helped me start being the person I wanted to be. One I had met during my whole "screw everything" stage and somehow still stayed my friend, I don't know if that's how she wanted it to go, but she's stuck with me now! ;) If I had never gone to OSU then I would never be able to call them my best friends...I wouldn't even know they existed. They each add something a little different to my life even though we don't reside in the same state. I hope that I continue to learn from them and grow from what they teach me. They may not know it, but they influence me so much and I hope that one day I can do the same for them. They help me live orange and they are the fondest memories I have from my 4 years in Stillwater and I'll hold them close always.