One Night...

I really hate/love looking through old pictures. I love them because they remind me of all of the things that I have done or gone through that I may have otherwise forgotten about. They also remind me of all of the change that has happened since that picture was taken. I actually went through all of the pictures on my external hard drive and it was nice to walk down memory lane. I found pictures from my first year of college, man did I look young and skinny!!! I also found pictures of Andrew and I and you could really tell even from the pictures that we were truly in love. It was nice to be reminded of that. Granted, that really doesn't help my current situation, but it was nice to be reminded of the love that I use to have and I know never to settle for less. It's just really hard for me to wrap my head around the idea that he and I are done for good. I just really don't want to believe it because if just doesn't feel right. My brother-in-law even admits that I bring out something different in him, Andrew, not my brother-in-law. I make him more talkative and more outgoing. In short, I bring out the best in him. It just ticks me off that he doesn't see that himself. He only focuses on the negative and I just don't know if I can handle that or not. Not like I really have a choice currently.